The Goddess will have her way
If you’re a man who’s interested in being awake and a woman’s eggs grabs a hold of you, then you just have to bow down to the divine mother and let her have her way with you. For she will take you and you will run down the rapids of life and at some point she will spit you out into some calm water or on a beach somewhere and you will catch your breath and look around and realize that 5 or 8 or 10 years have gone by. And if your desire to wake up has come with you into your being a dad, then you will have learned something about being a father to your children and a partner to your wife. And you will have been changed.
This new dawning may look a bit like David Byne’s out-cry “This is not my beautiful wife, this is not my beautiful house!” but the fact is that it is, as are the children. They’re yours as much as your self/ego is yours. And so now, with that new awakening, you may seek to claim your family lightly, just as you wear your self lightly, like a suit of well tailored clothes. You go on and you allow God/dess to find expression through you and your wife and your children. You pick up your practice and you carry on the work of awakening.